Bump on a Blog: Fifty Shades of Green | Page 2 | Kids VT | Seven Days | Vermont's Independent Voice

Seven Days needs your financial support!

Monday, December 9, 2013

Bump on a Blog: Fifty Shades of Green

Posted By on Mon, Dec 9, 2013 at 5:07 PM

Page 2 of 2

Sometimes, on days that started out well, I'd get cocky by dinnertime and attempt to eat something daring. This was always a terrible idea. Now, even the thought of these thwarted meals — massaman curry, vegetarian sushi, lemon risotto, chicken pho and the worst, late-night enchiladas — induces a kind of nauseous PTSD.

click to enlarge Dinner on a great day: salad and chips! - MEGAN JAMES
  • Megan James
  • Dinner on a great day: salad and chips!
As I slept, I dreamed of food: a mile-long buffet table laden with delicacies, mountains of chocolate-raspberry truffles, a bottomless pot of rich, velvety artichoke soup. I made a list of the foods I hoped to eat in the second trimester, stockpiling recipes I could barely read for fear they’d trigger a gag reflex. 

Earlier this fall, as I lay on the bathroom floor for the second time in a day, my husband rubbed my shoulders and reassured me that my hair didn't smell like barf. Great!

Still, my throat burned. I'd burst the capillaries around my eyes and down the edges of my face. So much for the pregnancy "glow." I looked like I had contracted the plague. 

But I didn't just feel terrible; I felt outraged. Why had no one warned me? How had the whole world neglected to mention the very real possibility that the first trimester — and part of the second — would so thoroughly suck? Instead I was left wondering, Am I doing something wrong? Am I just not cut out to be a mother? 

I’ll stop short of trying to find the silver lining in the toilet bowl. Still, there were moments of zen on the bathroom floor. Occasionally I stopped fighting my body and just let it do what it had to do. And when everyday stresses reared up, I tuned them out. My attention belonged to just two things: my body and the little person growing inside it.  

I’m thrilled to be expecting that little person. And now that I'm feeling its kicks and jabs, I'm beginning to fall in love with it. I just wish I could have mentally prepared myself for the unbelievable challenge of creating human life. Here's hoping those mythic cravings kick in soon!

Megan James is the managing editor of Kids VT. She'll be blogging about her pregnancy until the baby arrives — hopefully in early May.

This article was originally published in Seven Days' monthly parenting magazine, Kids VT.

Tags: , , , , , , , ,

Got something to say? Send a letter to the editor and we'll publish your feedback in print!

About The Author

Megan James

Megan James

Megan James began writing for Seven Days in 2010, first as Associate Arts Editor. She later became an editor for Seven Days' monthly parenting magazine, Kids VT, and is currently a freelance contributor.

Comments (2)

Showing 1-2 of 2


Comments are closed.

Since 2014, Seven Days has allowed readers to comment on all stories posted on our website. While we’ve appreciated the suggestions and insights, the time has come to shut them down — at least temporarily.

While we champion free speech, facts are a matter of life and death during the coronavirus pandemic, and right now Seven Days is prioritizing the production of responsible journalism over moderating online debates between readers.

To criticize, correct or praise our reporting, please send us a letter to the editor. Or send us a tip. We’ll check it out and report the results.

Online comments may return when we have better tech tools for managing them. Thanks for reading.

Keep up with us Seven Days a week!

Sign up for our fun and informative

All content © 2022 Da Capo Publishing, Inc. 255 So. Champlain St. Ste. 5, Burlington, VT 05401

Advertising Policy  |  Privacy Policy  |  Contact Us  |  About Us  |  Help
Website powered by Foundation